So...home from Daycare for 24hrs, perfect time to start learning to cook. With the help of an authentic Italian apron from Auntie Julie she is making her first homemade pizza! YUM! It was really yummy!
Thursday, October 16, 2014
Wednesday, October 8, 2014
Parental advisory...
ok so this is a venting post, if you have delicate sensibilities then skip and move on. I have had an epically rough day and this is my therapy so ...filter removed
ok so when I had Layla Rose I was warned at my post partum appointment that any subsequent pregnancies would be as complicated and potentially even more so, but this is regoddamndiculous.
I will add to that comment that getting pregnant with Layla Rose was a miracle and having a second baby was pretty much the biggest surprise and blessing and we are thrilled, and I feel slightly guilty to complain but at the same time this experience is relative to me so voila... So I am kinda tired of the glowing happy chirpy pregnant ladies in cute outfits and scarves yay for you but that it just not my experience. I am so much medication it is stupid, my belly looks like it has been beat daily with a 2x4 because of all the injections, I have to test for BP x2 every stupid day, monitor fetal movement and do almost weekly ultrasounds and that's just the quick version of it. What I find even more is that all my coping mechanisms have been removed....so unlike all these feminine girly happy yoga , aquafitness mommies...I am stripped of what I do, no hockey, no workouts, no zumba no nothing, even walking has become limited to 10 min WTF!! So here is me, dealing with all this crap and I can't even do anything I usually do to deal with stress and difficulty. Plus I don't really talk about all this because then people always say to me...well three years ago you would have happily gone through this for even one baby...which is true but doesn't make it any easier. SO people...stop saying it, not interested in your preaching. while I am on the topic of what not to say, to those morons who say anything about how big I've gotten in any shape or form, including " WOW! look how pregnant you are!" save your comments for yourself, you make me feel like crap. I worked really hard to lose weight before the baby and brining any attention to how big I am now...not really appreciated, Thanks.
Keeping all of that pent up frustration in mind now I go to the hospital AGAIN and it actually started really good, no line up at check in and I only waited about 40min ( a huge record) but as I was sitting in the waiting room I started to feel really dizzy, shaky, tired, sweaty etc. I know my BP was rising. So as I am doing my deep breathing techniques to try and lower it, I end up listening to these 2 bible thumping zealots talking about how gay people are ruining the worked with their ability to adopt babies or to have them via in-vitro...not gods plan blah blah blah ( this was sparked by a couple at in the waiting room) HEY IDIOTS gay kids come from straight parents. I will say this they are so freaking lucky I could barely catch my breath or I would have laced into them right there and then. Seriously it is stupidity like that that causes problems in the world, not gay people. So anyways I digress...The nurse calls me up for my initial session and finds my BP off the charts ( no surprise there I felt it) also tell me that they found anomalies in one of my tests so I had to repeat it that's always fun...swiftly followed by more blood tests ( screening for preeclampsia). Then I get called to the room by someone who is not Dr. Ponette. He explains to me that he is a resident, ok been there done that. Royal vic is a teaching hospital and since I have been there for ever I am used to it. But seriously this guy just takes the cake. He didn't even look at my file and tells me ok so you are early on...Um no...then has no idea about my complex files, argues with me about how many ultrasounds I have and the results and then proceeds to tell me I don't need an ultrasound...well at this point I just LOST MY SHIT! I demanded my Dr. and refused to leave until I saw him. When he finally got there he apologised for the resident and tried to explain but at this point I was so upset I just started balling. Which not going to lie...he had no idea what to do in that moment. So after I pull myself together and get through the appointment ok until the resident comes back in and starts to talk about me ( my case) to the DR. as if I am a case in book and not a human being ( I am now lying on the table) Dr. P pulls him out of the room but leaves the door open and then starts talking to him and the other resident about my case...going on and on about how this is a great learning experience since my case is so complex blah blah blah... mean while I can hear it all. I have never ever felt so much like a piece of crap as that. I am a human being with feeling and HORMONES!! I just couldn't take it. I was heart broken because of the level of trust I have in Dr. P and that I could be reduced to a learning opportunity instead of a woman going through a very difficult pregnancy. I got up got dressed and then went to go sit in the nurses area because I was so upset I was not sure I could drive home. The nurse there was very sympathetic and talked me down and just reassured me. After collecting myself I just went home.
I am just exhausted from this experience and I just want to have a healthy baby and then NEVER EVER go through this again. I am tired of being looked at this way and not treated like a woman. I plan on being a Mom and wife and not an interesting case for the medical journal. UGH!
ok so now that I have put pen to paper ( figuratively) I feel slightly better. 8 weeks to go and let me tell you I am counting them down!!!
ok so when I had Layla Rose I was warned at my post partum appointment that any subsequent pregnancies would be as complicated and potentially even more so, but this is regoddamndiculous.
I will add to that comment that getting pregnant with Layla Rose was a miracle and having a second baby was pretty much the biggest surprise and blessing and we are thrilled, and I feel slightly guilty to complain but at the same time this experience is relative to me so voila... So I am kinda tired of the glowing happy chirpy pregnant ladies in cute outfits and scarves yay for you but that it just not my experience. I am so much medication it is stupid, my belly looks like it has been beat daily with a 2x4 because of all the injections, I have to test for BP x2 every stupid day, monitor fetal movement and do almost weekly ultrasounds and that's just the quick version of it. What I find even more is that all my coping mechanisms have been removed....so unlike all these feminine girly happy yoga , aquafitness mommies...I am stripped of what I do, no hockey, no workouts, no zumba no nothing, even walking has become limited to 10 min WTF!! So here is me, dealing with all this crap and I can't even do anything I usually do to deal with stress and difficulty. Plus I don't really talk about all this because then people always say to me...well three years ago you would have happily gone through this for even one baby...which is true but doesn't make it any easier. SO people...stop saying it, not interested in your preaching. while I am on the topic of what not to say, to those morons who say anything about how big I've gotten in any shape or form, including " WOW! look how pregnant you are!" save your comments for yourself, you make me feel like crap. I worked really hard to lose weight before the baby and brining any attention to how big I am now...not really appreciated, Thanks.
Keeping all of that pent up frustration in mind now I go to the hospital AGAIN and it actually started really good, no line up at check in and I only waited about 40min ( a huge record) but as I was sitting in the waiting room I started to feel really dizzy, shaky, tired, sweaty etc. I know my BP was rising. So as I am doing my deep breathing techniques to try and lower it, I end up listening to these 2 bible thumping zealots talking about how gay people are ruining the worked with their ability to adopt babies or to have them via in-vitro...not gods plan blah blah blah ( this was sparked by a couple at in the waiting room) HEY IDIOTS gay kids come from straight parents. I will say this they are so freaking lucky I could barely catch my breath or I would have laced into them right there and then. Seriously it is stupidity like that that causes problems in the world, not gay people. So anyways I digress...The nurse calls me up for my initial session and finds my BP off the charts ( no surprise there I felt it) also tell me that they found anomalies in one of my tests so I had to repeat it that's always fun...swiftly followed by more blood tests ( screening for preeclampsia). Then I get called to the room by someone who is not Dr. Ponette. He explains to me that he is a resident, ok been there done that. Royal vic is a teaching hospital and since I have been there for ever I am used to it. But seriously this guy just takes the cake. He didn't even look at my file and tells me ok so you are early on...Um no...then has no idea about my complex files, argues with me about how many ultrasounds I have and the results and then proceeds to tell me I don't need an ultrasound...well at this point I just LOST MY SHIT! I demanded my Dr. and refused to leave until I saw him. When he finally got there he apologised for the resident and tried to explain but at this point I was so upset I just started balling. Which not going to lie...he had no idea what to do in that moment. So after I pull myself together and get through the appointment ok until the resident comes back in and starts to talk about me ( my case) to the DR. as if I am a case in book and not a human being ( I am now lying on the table) Dr. P pulls him out of the room but leaves the door open and then starts talking to him and the other resident about my case...going on and on about how this is a great learning experience since my case is so complex blah blah blah... mean while I can hear it all. I have never ever felt so much like a piece of crap as that. I am a human being with feeling and HORMONES!! I just couldn't take it. I was heart broken because of the level of trust I have in Dr. P and that I could be reduced to a learning opportunity instead of a woman going through a very difficult pregnancy. I got up got dressed and then went to go sit in the nurses area because I was so upset I was not sure I could drive home. The nurse there was very sympathetic and talked me down and just reassured me. After collecting myself I just went home.
I am just exhausted from this experience and I just want to have a healthy baby and then NEVER EVER go through this again. I am tired of being looked at this way and not treated like a woman. I plan on being a Mom and wife and not an interesting case for the medical journal. UGH!
ok so now that I have put pen to paper ( figuratively) I feel slightly better. 8 weeks to go and let me tell you I am counting them down!!!
Sunday, October 5, 2014
Music class
OMG too funny!! Today we took Layla Rose to the library and did a music class where this kids are supposed to sing and dance in English French and Spanish. SO FUNNY! Layla didn't sit still for one minute! haha! but there were few other runners so I didn't feel bad at all, actually in between mu laughing fits at her hilarious dancing and clapping I felt like she fit right in. Having said that, it is clear waiting , taking turns and patience are on the top of my to do list in terms of helping to develop these skills ( hmmm wonder where she gets it from ) either way super fun activity at the Kirkland library...here are a few pics I managed between the crying laughter fits ( oh yes and I am not too sure who had more fun, Eric or Layla Rose , again )
Friday, October 3, 2014
Diapers and Batteries...
So baby #2 is on his way in early December and we are super excited. To think that three years ago we were blessed with getting pregnant with a miracle baby and then to find out we were able to have a second! WOW! so it just seems fitting to have a small little party to celebrate. So even though I said I never would do it again..lol we are having a little "sprinkle" for our little man. We were so lucky to be surrounded by so much love and generosity with our dragon, Layla Rose that we have just about everything we could need! WOW! I mean the truth is (according to me lol) that new moms only need a few ESSENTIAL things...diapers and lots of them in all sizes, batteries, batteries, batteries....again all sizes. and finally THE STRONGEST COFFEE ON THE PLANET!!! ha ha! because you know you are not getting any sleep! HAHA!! I say this because I have been getting lots of questions (very appreciated by both Eric and I) on what to get us, but please NOTHING, we really do just want to celebrate this baby with our friends and families! SO FUN! and seriously who doesn't love cake (especially diaper shaped ones, hee hee).
9 weeks to go until baby is here and we are working on the room and TRYING to get Layla Rose to get ready for Baby but still she doesn't seem to do anything with her pretend baby other than smash it around. This little guy better be tough!!
9 weeks to go until baby is here and we are working on the room and TRYING to get Layla Rose to get ready for Baby but still she doesn't seem to do anything with her pretend baby other than smash it around. This little guy better be tough!!
Thursday, September 18, 2014
11 Weeks to go!
I am sitting here on my couch (which has now been delivered in full, lol) I am having trouble justifying this bed rest thing. Then on the other hand with the way I have been feeling I can't see it being any other way. It is once again an emotional roller coaster , knowing I need to do this, but at the same time resenting it. It will all be worth it in the end I know , I know. I should also be grateful that I was blessed with a second baby, when we never thought we would have even one, and I know there are lots of people who would gladly switch with me to be able to have one. Sometimes I feel like a spoiled brat for complaining about how tough this pregnancy has been, then on the other hand it is al relative to me and so who knows...either way Baby boy Mancini will have been earned! HAHA!! and we are super excited for him to get here. We just put together the dresser in his room and today I'll be installing the lights. Almost finished our Monsters inc room YAY!!
Next week I go for my sugar test, the way things are going I am feeling like it will be positive...I mean I might as well complete the list! LOL! but seriously I hope not. My Doctor ( Vincent Ponette) Who is my personal angel and amazing man is still following me and is confident that I will make it to 36 weeks if all is good. SO looking good for Baby Mancini.
Next week we start Swimming lessons for Layla Rose, this is the first time she will be in lessons without us in the water. However she will be reunited with her buddy Zack and I am sure double trouble will give them a run for their money. LOL! I won't lie I am a bit nervous because Layla Rose is a fish and she is unafraid of the water. When we take her swimming she jumps in by herself, I hope they are ready for her...especially since the life jacket thing is not her favorite. OH BOY!! I will definitely be posting pics of that once it has begun. Busy few weekends to come so I will post again soon!
Talk again soon!!
Next week I go for my sugar test, the way things are going I am feeling like it will be positive...I mean I might as well complete the list! LOL! but seriously I hope not. My Doctor ( Vincent Ponette) Who is my personal angel and amazing man is still following me and is confident that I will make it to 36 weeks if all is good. SO looking good for Baby Mancini.
Next week we start Swimming lessons for Layla Rose, this is the first time she will be in lessons without us in the water. However she will be reunited with her buddy Zack and I am sure double trouble will give them a run for their money. LOL! I won't lie I am a bit nervous because Layla Rose is a fish and she is unafraid of the water. When we take her swimming she jumps in by herself, I hope they are ready for her...especially since the life jacket thing is not her favorite. OH BOY!! I will definitely be posting pics of that once it has begun. Busy few weekends to come so I will post again soon!
Talk again soon!!
Thursday, September 11, 2014
Day one...
Ok so today was my first day of official bed rest. I am SERIOUSLY limited in what I can do. I was told I can't be walking or doing anything that makes me out of breath for more then 15 minutes...this was after I asked if it was ok to go back to Zumba. LOL. I LOVE MY DR. seriously have a crush on him, but when he told me this... I was not happy. I mean it takes me 15 minutes juts to seep and vaccum.I think it is hard ot have a 2 year old and then expect to be on bed rest. UGH... That having been said there are some fun things... one of those is the time to cook again.
Today I made an amazing risotto and Layla Rose ATE IT ALL!! she is not a huge eater so I was thrilled!! I also made apple sauce, muffins and Jello! LOL. so it was great to be able to eat some home made non BBQ food. Next week I will be making my turkey chilli and pasta fagioli. YUM!
I guess I should be grateful for these few moments of peace because when baby #2 comes there wont be much of that I am told! HAHA! I am super excited to get there, but scared all at the same time. We finished painting the room and started to get it ready...MONSTERS INC. is the theme super fun! We've been working really hard to get this house finished before baby comes and we are going to have our first guests this weekend. YAY!
Coming up is Layla Rose' glorious return to swimming lessons with her buddy Zack, the dynamic duo will now be rocking the pool without us in the water. YIKES! I am in no way worried about her in the water...she is a fish. But how are they going to keep her on the side to wait her turn I have no clue. She doesn't even wait for us, she just jumps right in. I am sure that will be wonderful for my blood pressure. I will definitely be posting pics of that!
Lots of exciting things planned for the fall...stay tuned!
Today I made an amazing risotto and Layla Rose ATE IT ALL!! she is not a huge eater so I was thrilled!! I also made apple sauce, muffins and Jello! LOL. so it was great to be able to eat some home made non BBQ food. Next week I will be making my turkey chilli and pasta fagioli. YUM!
I guess I should be grateful for these few moments of peace because when baby #2 comes there wont be much of that I am told! HAHA! I am super excited to get there, but scared all at the same time. We finished painting the room and started to get it ready...MONSTERS INC. is the theme super fun! We've been working really hard to get this house finished before baby comes and we are going to have our first guests this weekend. YAY!
Coming up is Layla Rose' glorious return to swimming lessons with her buddy Zack, the dynamic duo will now be rocking the pool without us in the water. YIKES! I am in no way worried about her in the water...she is a fish. But how are they going to keep her on the side to wait her turn I have no clue. She doesn't even wait for us, she just jumps right in. I am sure that will be wonderful for my blood pressure. I will definitely be posting pics of that!
Lots of exciting things planned for the fall...stay tuned!
Monday, September 8, 2014
Quinn Farm
Well what a fun vacation we had! Even with limited mobility we still had a great time! to end it all we did some fun apple picking. Of course I had to dress Layla Rose like a little farmer with overalls from her Auntie Karla! Little farmer ...she was so funny, she picked one apple and held onto it for dear life, eating it along the way. Super fun outing!!
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