Update

So it has been 11 weeks of my weight loos goal of 24 lbs in 12 weeks....I didn't make it or, I should say I won't make it to 24lbs. However I have worked really hard and I have lost 16lbs which is still pretty good. I wanted to hit the 100lbs by my friends wedding but that is not gonna happen but I have had a few small victories along this journey to report...

So the first thing is that I was able to "teach" a few zumba routines to the kids at camp. My most amazing friend and mentor Nancy Metsos from Studio Benefit who has been encouraging me since almost the beginning let me share her INCREDIBLE routines. I do not like to be in front of a crowd when I exercise because I think that people will be laughing at the "fat girl" trying t o exercise. But I faced that fear and did it. Perhaps I am not the most natural or best teacher but I tried and it was fun!

The I played hockey with my husband , Steve and Kevin. I am always full of anxiety when I play with those guys. They are EXCEPTIONALLY better than me and I never want for them to think I am a crappy player. Last night they came to play with my team and I didn't have the  best game, I new blades on had trouble pivoting and sharp turns so defensively ...not my best game. I felt like crap after the game, but then I talked myself out of it and just focused on what I did well. Next time I get to play with them I will do much better and feel good about it from the start!

I have some exciting new challenges coming up  I am going to go to Arbraska with some friends in October and I am starting a Biggest Loser program at the studio with My amazing friends Gina, Tina and Julie and our amazing instructors Ariane and Nancy.

Phew...lots to say but this journey is soooooooooo layered. It is not just about working out and eating well. It is about changing the way I think ( which is MUCHO hard) I am still struggling with self confidence and looking at myself with pride rather than shame. But I am working on it. I am also trying to surround myself with people who help me rather than hinder me. It goes a long way to have supportive people who understand that this is a lifetime battle I am trying to win. So all of that to say , these little blog entries help me stay focused. So thanks all for letting me get it out! and here is to the next chunk of my journey!

Come a long way with  my little dragon by my side!