Saturday, October 3, 2015

Disney world!!

OMG this was a trip worthy of Clark Griswald but it was so worth every minute!! here are just a few pics i'll put more in a bit... but PHEW it was magical and I need another vacation just to get over it!! LOL













Monday, August 10, 2015

Moving forward...

Wowee wow folks, so much has happened in the last little bit that i feel i would need to write this post in chapters...so lets get on with it!

I can't remember where i left off on my beautiful dragon saga BUT this is where we stand now...a much better place, with much better prospects on the horizon. Yes Layla Rose still has a speech delay, and yes she still has sensory deficits, and no it will not fix itself over night. but with the interventions we have been doing there has been so much progress. Lets begin with the fact that Layla Rose has the BEST an I mean BEST daycare educator in the world ( for her), under her guidance and incredible patience Layla has been able to learn coping skills for stressful situations. Her speech therapist is a godsend. We tried a few , but Stacey Knect is just the best for her, she has kids of her own, and she is a young mom who gets it. She never  makes me feel like a failure as a mom and she just LOVES Layla Rose. Ann Zilderbrant is her Occupation therapist and has given us so much hope. She thinks that the sensory deficit is only temporary and will pass, that with calming techniques and as her vocabulary increases she will be able to better vocalise what is bothering her and when she has had enough. and Alexandra Rothstein is her Behavior Therapist who helps Eric and I to better teach and cope with the behaviours associated with a speech delay and sensory deficit. PHEW! That's a lot and you think it would be enough but it hasn't been. Let me explain...all of these interventions have been fabulous and helpful in many ways; and the TEAM of people helping us to raise our precious and beautiful daughter are fantastic, but as parents we were failing our daughter. It was all being worked on and fixed etc...but our objective was to "fix" her and something was missing. But in the last 10 days we have had a revelation in our home that has changed everything. Have you ever heard of Dr. Shefali Tsabary? No? well let me tell you folks, if you have not had the chance to read her book "The Conscious Parent: transforming ourselves,empowering our children" Then do it, if you can attend her seminar, do it. If you can do anything that has her theory and philosophy then do it. This woman has changed our lives for the better. Now you may be saying ...ya ya another book, who needs that. but I swear if you read it and GET IT you will change everything you know about yourself and your parenting. DO the seminar and within days of her plan you will see EPIC change. Dr. Tsabary philosophy is about connecting with your child on a profound level...in ways you never knew you could connect with a little person. I am not even going to try and explain it, but she opened my eyes to a world with my daughter i never even knew I was missing. Layla Rose has been home with us now for 10 days and we have both been implementing her philosophy and techniques and we have never cried so many tears of joy. We have been able to do things and enjoy it together, things we dreaded before, things we hated doing...like going to people's houses and crowds, playing with other kids etc. We have had moments of love and joy that I thought we would miss out because Layla Can't express them but I was wrong. We have connected to our little spirit and we will encourage her to be her own person, to let her spirit be what it wants to and to just be happy she is with us.

Don't get me wrong, this technique and philosophy is hard, first they make you work on YOU, analyse your upbringing and how it affects you. That's hard, They help you to give up the picture in your head that you think your child will become and replace it with the joy of the mystery of who they will grow into ( that was really hard, its hard to give up the dream you have for your kid and let the unknown take its place) It teaches us to connect, be quiet together, and to just be. its emotional, overwhelming and quite frankly not for the faint of heart or for those who don't want to put in the work. But Holy...Holy...Holy. I don't even know how to explain it. But if this work like this on a child with special needs, I can only imagine what it does for the normally developing child. Anyways ...Mom's get the book, do the work, and live in a calm and joy you never knew you could have.


Chapter 2 LOL...

In doing this with the Dragon, it has helped to change me as well, I must say that I have had to put running on the back burner and zumba because it was time to do an all Layla Rose all the time moment. But today I went back to Zumba, my knees still hurt like hell...but since I have been working out on the elliptical I was at least able to keep up cardiowise. I haven't been losing as much weight as I want ( only 4lbs in three weeks). But this is long term, I don't have the freedom to go to the gym as much as I would like but that's ok, because i accept that I am int his for the long haul...6 years to get my bachelors LOl..I am all about the long haul. Having said that though there is only 46 days until the race and I better get going!! so back to running, ibuprophen and k-t tape..oh yes!!

I will do this...I will get there...slow and steady my friends!

I just want to end this blog with a special shout out to my parents...especially my Mom...as I read this book, do the seminars and the inner evaluation, I realise that there is so much you did by instinct! So much of this theory seems to be natural to you and I just want to say a big old THANK YOU for doing your best. There is no such thing as the perfect parent, lord knows as a Mom I know we are just figuring it out day by day and hope that our kids don't hold it against us. I think the perfect parent is one who doesn't give up on us and loves us either way. So THANKS and I LOVE YOU!!
SO..in keeping with letting your kids spirit develop...it was either let her get soaking wet in the sprinkler.....or be sad. Sprinkler it is!!!


Sunday, July 5, 2015

Oh boy it has been awhile!

Can you tell I am working and have 2 kiddos LOL! sdorry for the lack of posting but voila I am back! So camp has started and this is my 11th year. OMG!! but i couldn't ask for a better job even though it keeps me very busy during the summer so I miss you all!! LOVE!!!!!

This weekend we have had a few events...staff soccer on friday ( nailed it! ) I won't post any pof those pics though...lets just say I will stick to hockey!

We celebrate dthe 40th wedding anniversary of my inlaws. that was especially fun since we got to see everyone an dhave a fire pit. Layla rose had fun in the forest ( albeit with her ipad) . Ill post shortly about her update but for now just fun!

And then today was family day at the beach! makes me can't wait for disney even more! ( 81 days)

So here are some wonderful moment fromt he weekend and I promise to post shortly all about where we stand with the dragon! I love you all!

















Friday, June 12, 2015

Weight up date...yes I am still battling this

ok folks, yes I am still talking about this...to my utter frustration. Here is where I stand right now:

Since giving birth I have had a few struggles, the more obvious being the recovery from the c section. It has taken quite a bit longer than the first. It has been five months and I am still getting some sharp pains when I attempt to do ab exercises. It just catches me off guard and has even made me stumble. Super frustrating.  Now add to that a conditin I am stuggling to control, I have sever inflamation of my knees, wrists, ankles, joints etc. I have done blood tests , 2 MRI's and a few osteo appointsments and I have been put on an ibuprophen protocol, emulgel on my joints and physio regimen. All in the hopes of restoring my strength and ability to train. Which thus far has been pitiful, I have struggled with my image and ability. I was so strong before the prgnancy, I had excellent cardio and stamina and I was motivated and had lost a ton of weight. Then I had my beautiful baby boy and have since then not risen to my potential. Partially due to the pain and poor status of my body and partially due to my lack of motivation and drive.  Knowing this didn't help, i felt dissapointed  in mysdelf and what I had become.  But one thing I am not ashamed of is my ability to bounce back and persevere so here we go again...

The results of my MRI show that there is no long term damage done and none that will be done if I run. My Dr. has said that training is not going to make it worse and that if I can manage the pain I have the go ahead t begin training. So I registered for the 10k on September 20th...That gives me exactly 99 days to get in shape for the run, loose weight and be on track to be my best self. Knowing all that I joined a new gym and have begun the journey once again and I am PROUD to say I did 4k today and was able to run 5minutes straight with only minimal pain. This both AMAZING and a bit off putting, since Zumba has been increasingly difficult for me. I am not sure if it is the twists and lateral movements, but it actually makes me sad to think I wouldn't be able keep dancing. I am working on trying to figure out how to manage the pain during zumba. Ill let you know how that works out but all in all I feel like I am on the right road again...so here we go 50lbs and counting!

Sunday, June 7, 2015

Beaver Lake

So we decided it would be fun to go on a picnic somewhere different, yesterday was a huge day for Layla Rose, especially since we were at the hospital for yet another allergic reaction...good lord! Anyways, so we thought a fun quiet activity at the park would be fun and so BEAVER LAKE it was. We got some yummy sandwiches at La Trattoria YUM! ok mommies...they're sandwiches are amazing but not really toddler friendly ( side note) Also noteworthy is the lake and its surrounding area is under construction and so you can't feed the ducks or anything like that. Its all fenced off, also the paths are all torn up so strollers are very difficult to push. Noe the less we had a great time and as you can imagine the dragon did very little pic-nicing and was mostly running around with a stick she found with a popped balloon tied to it. No need for toys with this feisty one! So.. Mommies, bring lots of toddler friendly food and be ready to walk, oh yes and the park area is super neat but for older kids :) Super fun day!