Today our son would’ve been 14 years old. I think about him a lot, even if I don’t talk about it much. Today I am blessed with my 2 angels and I hug them extra hard on Feb 4th. Its crazy how life events shape who you are. Like one day you are one person, then something happens and you are someone else. For years and years I fought to have more children and I never really spoke about how hard it was, how sad I was and how hard it is to think about those days. So, today I think about my son, who watches my little family and I miss him. I know its crazy to think that after so long it hits, but these days life has been a little emotional.
Nothing wrong with a little emotion
This weekend I celebrated by 40th birthday with my friends, and I feel like a different person again. I was in a room with 50 people and there was so much love I felt like bursting. Could it be that I am blessed with these amazing friends? How did I get so lucky to have all of them in my life, and unless I delusional it all feels so genuine? I made a little speech in the beginning thanking them for all they have done for me. I wanted them to feel my gratitude and my love. It seems like going through therapy has made me so aware of the people in my life who make the effort to show me I matter, and I want them to feel the same.
I hope it worked.
I have watched a movie that my friend, my team made for me and I can’t stop crying. Not because of the message but because of the time and effort that they all went through for me. Just like my purse (that’s another story) This act of kindness, of love has forever changed me.
Thank you
Maybe its because I am getting older, maybe its because ii am tired, maybe its because I am taking time to evaluate my life, my feelings, my mind, who knows. I just feel the need to spread the message of love and kindness. Its cliché but its true, we don’t know what other people are living so be kind, hug each other, say I love you.
I love you
